For the First time in my life,
I used body shampoo to wash my hair...
I can't swallow my dinner..
I am afraid....
I am scared....
Ever since I was born, I believe that there are nothing to be afraid if I do not know what it is.
I have been keeping this record for 24 years.
For the First time in my life, I was afraid of something which I do not know.
&
Finally I do realise what is the most important things in my life.
When the D told me that I might get C, need to go specialist for further check-up. I was shocked.
The first which came to my mind was what gonna happen to my parent when I am gone. I am afraid.
I pretend nothing had happened and left the clinic.
For the first time , I can't finish my dinner. I just can't stop thinking about the consequence to my family. What should I do to make them feel better if this is real. Whose gonna take care of them.
And it continued when I bathe.
For the first time, I used body shampoo to wash my hair though I am clear-headed.
For the first time I try to pray to god.
wish me luck! :)
