For the First Time

For the First time in my life,
I used body shampoo to wash my hair...
I can't swallow my dinner..
I am afraid....
I am scared....

Ever since I was born, I believe that there are nothing to be afraid if I do not know what it is.
I have been keeping this record for 24 years.

For the First time in my life, I was afraid of something which I do not know.
&
Finally I do realise what is the most important things in my life.

When the D told me that I might get C, need to go specialist for further check-up. I was shocked.
The first which came to my mind was what gonna happen to my parent when I am gone. I am afraid.
I pretend nothing had happened and left the clinic.

For the first time , I can't finish my dinner. I just can't stop thinking about the consequence to my family. What should I do to make them feel better if this is real. Whose gonna take care of them.
And it continued when I bathe.

For the first time, I used body shampoo to wash my hair though I am clear-headed.
For the first time I try to pray to god.

wish me luck! :)

I Want Travel Around The WORLD!!!

Its been awhile since I last dream about something!

Finally~~ I decide to travel around the world!!
And this time I am not gonna give up that easily!!

I will kept my promise!!

I will dream it!!
I will dream do it!!
I will make it happen!!!

Oh Boon How
10.55pm
20/4/2014