Holy Passing FAD

Oh My God!!!
Its been 5 days since I made my daily discipline routine!!!!

Yet~~~ I screw it perfectly by cancel off my 5.00am wake up alarm each day in the morning.

Arghhhhh~~~ I am goddamn lazy when I was on my bed.... can some one help me!? Please~~~ Give a wake up call in the morning!!  If you do willing to help me, do give me a call with +6586214812  :) 

Sometimes I felt that I am kinda passing fad person. When I am interest in a thing, I will do it without second thought.

BUT I will lose my passion when It is not as fun or as challenge as I thought...

What's the problem with me!? Because of this attitude, it is hard for me to find what I want to do and what I keen to do...

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Discipline is Power

Argh~~~ My will is damn weak!
My laziness always take over my will and spoilt all my plan!! Hate my laziness!!

Even though now I am not sure what is my DREAM, least I am gonna finish my small targets first.

1. Be a son which make my parents proud
2. Able take care of myself and support my family
3. Be my family's BACKUP

I am gonna train my discipline. I WILL BUILD MY DISPLINE. I WILL CONTROL MYSELF

MY DISCIPLINE SCHEDULE

Monday - Friday
5.00 am -- jog 4km
6.30 am -- get ready to work
8.30 am -- absorbs everything skills and knowledges I could from seniors and boss
10.00 pm -- read an articles before sleep

I AM GONNA DO IT!!
I WILL MAKE IT HAPPENED!!
I WILL DONE IT!!

Sam
12.25am ( 8/2/2014 )

Welcome 2014 !!

2013~~
Its been year which full of happy and sadness.
Well~ I am gonna left the sadness be by gone and keep the happiness and bring it forward to 2014!! :)

Its kinda sad that I couldn't finish my 2013 targets. But I will continue them and add on others target to full my 2014 journey with challengers and surprises!!!

1. Learn to swim
2. Tomorrowland 2014
3. Meet K when she moves to Malta
4. Lose 10kg
5. Celebrate  Christmas and New year at taiwan
6. At least got 4 digits in 360 Ac
7. Gift parents a travel trips
8. Learn one more language
9. Able to discipline myself
10. Able to done commissioning by myself

2014!! HERE I COME~~
AZAaaaaa~~ Fighting!!!

Here without you

 A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love, whoa

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me, yeah oh yeah oh

Kinda miss u ~~ Karolina

I Miss Your Reddish Brown EYES

I miss those reddish brown eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa...

I see your reddish brown  eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you (And I'm lovin' you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through (I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa...

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
Can't believe it, I still want you (And I'm lovin' you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through (I know it’s never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa, no, no... 

This Aint what I want!

Well~ guess my 'politics' journey has begun after a month in this cage....

The OLD Man finally raise his voice before went to RC to get more troubles for us. He wants me to learn machining with the others two guys in order to understanding the functions of the machine and the programming of its for future design development.

Obviously, its DEJAVU! The fat guys who previously operating the CNC machine is being fired with the same method a year ago. Thus both the guys understood what gonna happened and made their own prediction for their future and told me directly that if this is another people, they would teach me whatever they know. But this is OLD MAN, they only will teach me basics stuff to protect their own place....

And I am in trouble once again... if they didn't tell me about it, maybe I can still complained it. But now it become another senario which might caused me become a 'soloman'... It has created a tough situation for me which I hate to deal with or face it.

Its been a month in this cage. Start to realise that this aint the life which I been looking for. This aint the team and environment I been looking for. I am an emotional person. Relationship was the last thing I wanna deal with. This guy has been my mentor for a month. Though he has his own reasons, he still answer whatever questions I asked.

This morning when I start the machine, this guy came to me and told me that he will back his country soon with some tears in his eyes. I was stunt at the moment and didn't know what to do. Though I know this day will come eventually, it's still tough for the to face it. Esspecially when it is my first friend which watch my back in cage and benefactor to me.
This aint RIGHT!

Kinda missed networking's life where there is no gap between mentor and no personal benefits crashed. Where mentors are willing to give all they could to benefits people and friends.

Shall I get back to networking life? 

FML

FML!!!!
Working's life is damn boring!!! 

Everyday just keep repeat the same stuff and deal with same peoples....
This wasn't the life style and working style which I been looking for!!!

Somebody~~~ Please help me!! ArghhhhhhH~~~~~~

Hello~ Mr Lu!!!
This is not a challenging job and it doesn't fit it!!! PLease~~~!!
This is what we so called ROBOT LIFE in my generations!!!
You,  this selfish MTF bluffed and cheated us just for ur own  GOOD!!!
= ="

Ever since then~ this is happened to me!!!! 

 

How wish I could get back the life which I used to own it!!!!