我好像把自己弄丢了

I AM COMING BACK!!

1/5/2019

OMG~ I MISS YOU!!

OMG~ I miss the days that wake up in the morning or afternoon! Message the st mark group for notes & went opposite parkinson steps, have some coffee and enjoy "the" view!!!

Enjoy the my favourite cappucino/americano by sips under the sun with cold wind blowing to my face!!! Argh~~~ thats life!!!

Miss the market's "shiu fan" & "curry noodles"!!

HOMETOWN's "guo bao rou", "suan ni bai rou", "shui zhu yu", "yu xiang qie long", "huang jin yu mi li" & so on!!

TONG PALACE's "chi zhi feng zao", "san shao fan" ; HOS's "cha xiu bao", "xo luo bo gao" & more and more!!! Arghhhhh~~~ hungry dy!!

Miss the night we had vodka, jagerbomb, tequilla, sambuka, chivas, blacklabel and motherfucker shots with pyramid games, ring of fire, fuck the dealer!! Walk put to the streets to check see drunk & high ang moh chicks and sohai behaviour!!

Miss the "lai lo" night end up b home at "morning"!! Miss the midnight "flames chicken wings"!!!

Miss the trips we went!! The moment in the train & the moment in the flights!!!

Arghhhhh~~~ I Miss UK's life!!!   :(

This is working Life....

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

I am kinda pissed recently. Arghhhhhh~~~~
There is a kind of people when they started to envy you then they will find trouble for you.
Even though they, themselves is supposed to be the one who is responsible for it, still they will ask your help for granted.

DAMN You Asshole!!!!

I used to help you because it is urgent and you need help!
But now you are expecting my help and crossing line says this is my problem!!!!
Alright~ I am ok with it, I can bear with as I gonna fled  from this shit place soon.

Will see what happen NEXT~~
Ciao~~  Ah men! :)

For the First Time

For the First time in my life,
I used body shampoo to wash my hair...
I can't swallow my dinner..
I am afraid....
I am scared....

Ever since I was born, I believe that there are nothing to be afraid if I do not know what it is.
I have been keeping this record for 24 years.

For the First time in my life, I was afraid of something which I do not know.
&
Finally I do realise what is the most important things in my life.

When the D told me that I might get C, need to go specialist for further check-up. I was shocked.
The first which came to my mind was what gonna happen to my parent when I am gone. I am afraid.
I pretend nothing had happened and left the clinic.

For the first time , I can't finish my dinner. I just can't stop thinking about the consequence to my family. What should I do to make them feel better if this is real. Whose gonna take care of them.
And it continued when I bathe.

For the first time, I used body shampoo to wash my hair though I am clear-headed.
For the first time I try to pray to god.

wish me luck! :)

I Want Travel Around The WORLD!!!

Its been awhile since I last dream about something!

Finally~~ I decide to travel around the world!!
And this time I am not gonna give up that easily!!

I will kept my promise!!

I will dream it!!
I will dream do it!!
I will make it happen!!!

Oh Boon How
10.55pm
20/4/2014

DREAM BIG E-BOOK

'Dream Big', the first e-book I checked out this year.
[ Check out here ~~ http://geneciaalluora.com/dreambig/ ]

Genecia Luo, a beauty queen with dreamer's mindset. A girl who used the 21st Century tools correctly. An entrepreneur whom I am currently learning from. ( Its motivated when I am learning from a beauty chick!!)

STEP 1:
I think money is fragrance. It gave me the power of choice. I could choose what I want to do at any time at anywhere. I could get what I want and enjoy my lifestyle. I could make the life of people around me better!!

For example:
Breakfast -I would like to had a cup of double shot expressos with a baguette and a chocolate donut as breakfast at Montparnasse, Paris.
Lunch -Had garlic grilled lobster as lunch at London's Burger Lobster.
Teatime - Had a chocolate fondente and a affogato at Leeds' Carluccio's.
Dinner - Had a 三烧面( noodles served with roast duck, pork and chicken ) at Leeds' Tong Palace.
Supper - Had Leed's flames spicy fried chicken wings with a bottle of budweiser or kronenbourg 1664 blanc as supper.

That would be god damn perfect for a day!!!   XD

 STEP 2:
I am afraid of success in the area of engineering especially in oil and gas as I am not sure if this is the industry I been dream of. The reason I chose this industry is because I heard that I can earn lots of money in this industry while the jobs I dream of is wear suits working in a high floor office with an individual room rather than wear safety boots and cloth and working at the oil rigs platform.

I am confusing....

STEP 3:
Law of attraction. For me, I am staying with a positive roommate. Though there might be some negatives moment, we did try to stay positive!  I have been repeating 3 motivational videos every morning to keep me motivated from my job and trying to figure out what I want!!

Hope it won't cost too much time for me to done it.

Well~ I guess I shall gone the part 2 of the e-book.
Have a nice day~!!!

3 Videos A DAy Keep Laziness AWAY

YEAH!!!~~~~
One of the three videos I have been repeating gone through since early FEB 2014.
I did this in order to train my discipline. In fact, it did change my mindset!

Below are the quotes or paragraph which I like the most. It affected me ALOTTTTT!!!

" Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how WINNER is done!!

Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and no pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or nobody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're BETTER than that!!!   "
                                                                                                                                    ~Sylvester Stallone

" Deep, deep down ask yourself, Who do you want to be? Not what, BUT who. I'm talking about figuring it out for yourself, ' What makes you happy? '   "  
                                                                                                                          ~ Arnold Schwarzenegger

" Don't ever let somebody tell you, 'You can't do something.'
  You got a dream? You gotta protect it.
  If people can't do something themselves, they gonna tell you, 'You can't do it.'
  If you want something, GO GET IT!!  "
                                                                                                                                               ~ Will Smith

"Pain is temporary. It may last for a minutes, an hour, a day or even a year. But eventually, it will suicide. Something else will come and take over it!!  "

I like these positive sentences! It teach me how to be stronger and tougher to face the reality and truth.
I believe that being with positive people or positive things are gonna good stuffs and good lucks!  

CHEERS BOON HOW

Holy Passing FAD

Oh My God!!!
Its been 5 days since I made my daily discipline routine!!!!

Yet~~~ I screw it perfectly by cancel off my 5.00am wake up alarm each day in the morning.

Arghhhhh~~~ I am goddamn lazy when I was on my bed.... can some one help me!? Please~~~ Give a wake up call in the morning!!  If you do willing to help me, do give me a call with +6586214812  :) 

Sometimes I felt that I am kinda passing fad person. When I am interest in a thing, I will do it without second thought.

BUT I will lose my passion when It is not as fun or as challenge as I thought...

What's the problem with me!? Because of this attitude, it is hard for me to find what I want to do and what I keen to do...

=="

Discipline is Power

Argh~~~ My will is damn weak!
My laziness always take over my will and spoilt all my plan!! Hate my laziness!!

Even though now I am not sure what is my DREAM, least I am gonna finish my small targets first.

1. Be a son which make my parents proud
2. Able take care of myself and support my family
3. Be my family's BACKUP

I am gonna train my discipline. I WILL BUILD MY DISPLINE. I WILL CONTROL MYSELF

MY DISCIPLINE SCHEDULE

Monday - Friday
5.00 am -- jog 4km
6.30 am -- get ready to work
8.30 am -- absorbs everything skills and knowledges I could from seniors and boss
10.00 pm -- read an articles before sleep

I AM GONNA DO IT!!
I WILL MAKE IT HAPPENED!!
I WILL DONE IT!!

Sam
12.25am ( 8/2/2014 )

Welcome 2014 !!

2013~~
Its been year which full of happy and sadness.
Well~ I am gonna left the sadness be by gone and keep the happiness and bring it forward to 2014!! :)

Its kinda sad that I couldn't finish my 2013 targets. But I will continue them and add on others target to full my 2014 journey with challengers and surprises!!!

1. Learn to swim
2. Tomorrowland 2014
3. Meet K when she moves to Malta
4. Lose 10kg
5. Celebrate  Christmas and New year at taiwan
6. At least got 4 digits in 360 Ac
7. Gift parents a travel trips
8. Learn one more language
9. Able to discipline myself
10. Able to done commissioning by myself

2014!! HERE I COME~~
AZAaaaaa~~ Fighting!!!

Here without you

 A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love, whoa

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me, yeah oh yeah oh

Kinda miss u ~~ Karolina

I Miss Your Reddish Brown EYES

I miss those reddish brown eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa...

I see your reddish brown  eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
I can't believe it, I still want you (And I'm lovin' you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through (I know it's never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa...

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
Can't believe it, I still want you (And I'm lovin' you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through (I know it’s never gonna come again)
I miss everything about you
Without you, whoa, no, no... 

This Aint what I want!

Well~ guess my 'politics' journey has begun after a month in this cage....

The OLD Man finally raise his voice before went to RC to get more troubles for us. He wants me to learn machining with the others two guys in order to understanding the functions of the machine and the programming of its for future design development.

Obviously, its DEJAVU! The fat guys who previously operating the CNC machine is being fired with the same method a year ago. Thus both the guys understood what gonna happened and made their own prediction for their future and told me directly that if this is another people, they would teach me whatever they know. But this is OLD MAN, they only will teach me basics stuff to protect their own place....

And I am in trouble once again... if they didn't tell me about it, maybe I can still complained it. But now it become another senario which might caused me become a 'soloman'... It has created a tough situation for me which I hate to deal with or face it.

Its been a month in this cage. Start to realise that this aint the life which I been looking for. This aint the team and environment I been looking for. I am an emotional person. Relationship was the last thing I wanna deal with. This guy has been my mentor for a month. Though he has his own reasons, he still answer whatever questions I asked.

This morning when I start the machine, this guy came to me and told me that he will back his country soon with some tears in his eyes. I was stunt at the moment and didn't know what to do. Though I know this day will come eventually, it's still tough for the to face it. Esspecially when it is my first friend which watch my back in cage and benefactor to me.
This aint RIGHT!

Kinda missed networking's life where there is no gap between mentor and no personal benefits crashed. Where mentors are willing to give all they could to benefits people and friends.

Shall I get back to networking life? 

FML

FML!!!!
Working's life is damn boring!!! 

Everyday just keep repeat the same stuff and deal with same peoples....
This wasn't the life style and working style which I been looking for!!!

Somebody~~~ Please help me!! ArghhhhhhH~~~~~~

Hello~ Mr Lu!!!
This is not a challenging job and it doesn't fit it!!! PLease~~~!!
This is what we so called ROBOT LIFE in my generations!!!
You,  this selfish MTF bluffed and cheated us just for ur own  GOOD!!!
= ="

Ever since then~ this is happened to me!!!! 

 

How wish I could get back the life which I used to own it!!!!

Catch the MOMENT

Loved this Canadian singer (Avril Lavigne) since her first album.
Amazed by her beauty too even though she is married now!   XD

Fall in love with this song when I first saw it on Canon's Commercial.
Indeed it is best to use camera to catch the best, the most enjoyed, the unforgettable, the most precious moment with friends, family and the one I love.

Influenced by this song and commercial, I learned to grab pictures of every meaningful moment in my life. Especially when I am with miss K and J.
I will do my best to grab their best and natural smile without their notice.
These are the best moments I ever had.

Wish the moment can last long forever ~~~~~~

" PART 2 "

Finished the PART 1 of my life - 23 years of study!!!!  :)

Finally stepped into PART 2~~  Fuzzy PART 2......
Kinda lost as I don't know where to start or where to go......  hmmmmm~~~
WHen I am too FREE~
I Missed about Leeds' life
I Missed about Eurotrips
I Missed about the moment together with friends
I Start to think about J and K
I Wondering how's J doing?
I Wish I could enjoy lazy as K ~~~~

Well these doesn't help much in PART 2!!
As for now the aim for PART 2 is MONEY!!!
When get MONEY~~~
My parents can retire Earlier!!
I am RICH~~
I am FREE~~
I can find J and  talk to her!!!
I can find K !
I can fill my scratch map faster than K~ XD

AND finally I am FINANCIAL FREEDOM~~~   MuahAHAHAHA

So~~

Its time to put away miss J and K away and FIGHT FOR PART 2!!!
AZzaaaaaa~~~~aaaaaaa  FIGHTING!!!!

Get to know Miss K

Wondering since when gala become my second home. And make dealer K smile become one of my interest in gala ( other than losing money... >.<).
Enjoy the moment when see her smile and " No more bet!! Thank you!!!"

9/6~13/6
Holy shit!! Rejected friends Europe trips invitation to join K's at Malta. Best trip ever!! Except for the swimming parts.....  我还真的是旱鸭子！！ ==""
First trip which wake up early and sleep early without any special drinking session. Each day is full and tiring. First trip which walked the most.....  Esspecially the "Temple RUN"-- Crazy !!!  Ahhahahaha
Blue Lagoon is awesome!! If would be more awesome if there are more water sports and I can swim....

21/6
Just cant forget every singles word she had said. The things she keen for and the her stories. Get down to Exeter to visit Auntie Lynne and find the scratch map for K. Surprisingly found it at John Lewis when shopping with lynne. Planned to give K surprise!!

4/7
Most excited day ever~~ first movie with K!! OmG!! That was awesome!! Cant stop smiling during the movie~~!!  Wondering it is the power of minion's BABABA BABANANA or K!?   Nice chat after the movie too XD

11/7
Last night in Paris, kinda miss ur smile!! :) the wifi in this hotel sucks....   What you doing now??  Hows Klaipeda??

15/7
Last day in Edinburgh-- Bad Day
My sis's phone got stolen yesterday. Took 3 hours in the police station to do statement.... However~~ Been Calton hill as the last stop in Edinburgh, Nice landscape view here AND BEst Place for " Sun Bathing" too!!

Been get to know K for almost a month. A girl who bites her fingers when she is too Free. A girl which likes to listen music. A girl which is cute and characteristic. Fall in love to her smile and then when she say " Oh my god, that was awesome!!"  She was really damn funny and cute at that moment!!  Cant stop talking to her and  want to get to know her more. Thus give up ' 7 neighbour' and second home in order to meet her. This helps correct the bad habits gain new habits - даведацца прапусціць хтосьці

Thinking of you

" Phobia Travelling "

am travelling with ur phobia. Train travelling is actually a good idea to chill and relax ur mind while enjoying the silent and the nature's GREEN !!

Whats the different between klaipeda's green and uk's green?

U should try it someday!!
=D